johnny kick a hole in the sky...
so i just got off the phone with my mom a little while ago, and fuck, they found more cancer, and jesus, what the fuck... i'm just kind of freaked right now. i mean, i don't know, it's scary, right? i'm just trying not to be too scared when i talk to her. like, i'm on the phone all holding it together and all boring and clinical and then i'm off the phone and my eyes are tearing up and i want to punch a hole in the sky and what do i do? i go outside and smoke a bunch of cigarettes and that's really doing everyone a lot of good. i don't know. fuck. she's going to beat this.
posted by ryan somers at 6:24 PM
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Ryan, this is fucked news. What are the details...
1) where did they find it?
2) what are the next steps?
3) What are the alternative medicines that may be available as opposed to Western Meds? So important to consider...I know she has her own doctors etc. but they do not always consider alternatives.
4) What makes her feel safe and good? Get it for her. Do not wait to help or hesitate to say what you want to say to her in terms of your love. There is no shame in pure emotion.
5) Who can you lean on right now? Tell them you need them.
6) Pray for real...to whatever you want - to her, to god, to Mother Earth, to your bottle of wine...but really ask for her recovery out loud and offer something in return...somoething you will give back in exchange.
It is too overwhelming all together...and all at once...
You need to break it down into steps (if I may suggest...) and you need to act...in some way...by praying or by perhaps making a list of alternative practioners or theories of how to handle whatever type of cancer she has. It is going to be okay...it is really. You need to know that.
I know it may be cold comfort but you are a really special person evidenced by your blogs...and life will hand these things to you to see how you fare in handling them...you have support if you ever need it...
I am sorry for this news.
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